Skizzles
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Okay, Okay! I take it back. Unfuck you!
 I <3 you too.
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(Originally posted on: 08-07-07 08:49:26 PM)
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Sup dudes.
So I am actually officially back on INTL, I have a laptop of my own now for college and shit and I guess I'll be regularly dropping by.
So, like here's the update.
I totally stopped doing drugs, I'm going to college in 14 days to major in finance with a pre-law focus. I've been in outpatient rehab for about a month now, which has been that kind of rock bottom experience I needed to finally get my shit together. I'll probably continue doing outpatient classes at another hospital by my campus for at least the first semester or two I'm there, which is by my own choice, because I've realized I really do need the help.
I was looking over some of my old posts with a very odd feeling. Last time I was a regular poster here was like two years ago, I was a 16 year old kid who thought he was invincible. I come back now as a legal adult, and really wish I could undo some of the things I was advocating in those old ranting posts of mine.
Life is fucking serious, that's been my most profound epiphany. I could have ended up so much worse than I am now. I could fill up a few pages about all the crazy ass close calls I've been in, all the near misses and chest clutching moments. It hasn't been worth it.
I feel I've had enough psychedelic experiences and mind expanding trips for one life time, it's time to plug myself into reality and stop trying to escape through these substances, because that's what it really boiled down to, escapism.
Now I am not some turn-around judgmental teetotaler. I've realized that moderation with substances such as alcohol and pot are just fine, as long as I don't let the acquisition and consumption of said substances affect my daily life. It is possible to use them responsibly, and have a merry time. Anything harder than that, fuck it. Never, ever again.
Anyway, I just kind of felt like writing this stuff down, hopefully some of you all can relate to it.
Much <3 INTL and I'm totally going to stick around for real this time
P.S. thanks for keeping my lounge
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[12:34am] <04AntiAmi> my member is better now
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[12:34am] <14Xunny> and Menion should shut the fuck up
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