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i really dont know what i want to do...i dislike everything...
i hate to work, i hate to go to school...

i figured that life is about experiences, so i should travel around the world and see new things instead of living in one place for my whole life...
but now i've realized that if you dont like to travel around to different places, then its a waste of your life to do so...you should do something that you like...
and i dont like to travel...so maybe i shouldnt do it

the problem is that i dont like anything...i really dont feel like going to new places and see new things, and i cant imagine getting a job that i dont dislike either...
life just seems completely pointless, and whatever i do i'll be stuck living on some shitty appartment and working with something that i dont like...
its a complete fucking waste, its full of pain and boredom...

the only reason that i'm not dead yet is that i'm terrified of death, cause i'm sure that theres no such thing as a life after death...and i really want to exist...
the fear of death is really ruining my life, but the only way to get rid of the fear of death is to die...
is that irony or something? cause i've forgotten what "irony" means tonight...

it seems that theres no way to get anything other than a boring, pathetic life...
i'll have to work for my whole life cause if i dont i wont have enough money to survive, and its so fucking pointless...i'd have killed myself long ago if it wasnt cause i'm afraid of death (like i mentioned above)

anyway, my question is, what do you plan to do with your life?
do you have something that you feel gives your life a meaning, and what is it?

and BTW, i know that this makes little sense, so feel free to flame me...but please dont say that i just have the "teenage angst syndrome"...
cause i've heard that a million times and i'm fucking tired of it...and yet no one has explained exactly what it is...
please say something more productive than that

vem bryr sig om hur nätterna far?
jag bryr mig inte ett spår
bara jag får ha mitt ansikte kvar, dolt i min älsklings hår
jag är en tvivelaktig figur, duger ej mycket till
bakom ett hörn står döden på lur, han tar mig när han vill

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I don't know how productive this will be but in all seriousness, I feel the exact, EXACT same way. As I read the things you said I could not figure out how in the world you put into words the exact same thing I think to myself every night. I'm so bored with this life and I can see what's coming for me and it looks like more boring bullshit. It's not so much that I'm scared of no life after death, I'm just scared of death for some reason.
What you wrote made total sense to me.

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all I can say is, I hear yeh...
I don't know what I want with life, I miss a 'purpose' or something. traveling sounds ok, but where to go? all alone? I dunno.
All I know is that I don't want to be together and I don't want to be alone. oh yeah and the purpose can not be found at the bottom of a bottle, something we both discovered already I believe. If you don't want to die, and you want something to enjoy life, go find it.

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ill probably end up spending my life as a transient or something.

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perhapse we should go find it together

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I don't know how productive this will be

i dont see the words "teemage angst" in your reply, so its productive enough for me...heh...
its nice to see that i'm not the only one...thank you

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I don't know what I want with life, I miss a 'purpose' or something. traveling sounds ok, but where to go? all alone? I dunno.

travelling with a few close friends would probably be nice...the problem is that travelling requires money, i dont have many close friends, i dont like to socialize with most people (wouldnt want to travel with them), and i'm not sure about how the "friends" i have really feel about me...

also, the fact that if i show anyone i meet IRL what i'm really like, they wont ever speak to me again

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travelling with a few close friends would probably be nice...the problem is that travelling requires money, i dont have many close friends, i dont like to socialize with most people (wouldnt want to travel with them), and i'm not sure about how the "friends" i have really feel about me...

also, the fact that if i show anyone i meet IRL what i'm really like, they wont ever speak to me again

that's my problem to, I am to scared to travel alone and then what?
IRL? What does that mean?

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oh yeah and the purpose can not be found at the bottom of a bottle,

thats right, but life is a lot less painful when you're drunk...thats why i do it

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I feel that if I can't do something great in life, I will have to do something shitty. I would like to do something artisitc, like write a book, make my own action figures, start a band, or some sort of movement.

I'm entertained, but I'd rather be enlightened.

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amen to that. its miller time.

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I consider myself really lucky in that I have a sort of goal, vague as it is. I want to become the sort of person that you meet and never forget... really just radiating energy and confidence. I also want to live in Japan, and have some degree of fame... after I get bored of that, BAM, celebrity's suicide, it'll all be very nice. i'm a serial-killer :)

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make sure to kill yourself with an OD of something then, kyrie...

preferably herion

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I plan on going to college first, and then hopefully the experiences that I have there will determine what I end up doing for a living.

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college...the only thing it taught me was that the one thing i had vauge interest in im not good enough for.

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Look up a guy named John Goddard.

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Quoted from NNY:
college...the only thing it taught me was that the one thing i had vauge interest in im not good enough for.

No shit. The only thing I learned in college was that the career I was interested in wasn't very interesting anymore.

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I wanna be a junkie.

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I want to be a junkie too, being high, drunk, etc is just so much better than sitting at home facing the reality of a harsh, boring world.

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My goal in life is to..Dunno. I just know I'd like to be married somewhere down the line..Other then that, no idea just yet.

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I've always wanted some proffesion in Computer Game engineering.. but if my next year math teacher screws me over, like this one did (I'm almost barely passing).. I might not get that position.

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being high, drunk, etc is just so much better than sitting at home facing the reality of a harsh, boring world.

thats why i do it...everything is so fucking boring, i cant find any other meaning in life...

why dont you become a junkie then?

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my future starts next week when my parents kick me out...ill finaly be able to live my dream as a transient.

edit: ill also do my best to be an alcoholic and a junkie.

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Junkie on what?

I'm thinking smack.

It'll be cool, like Trainspotting.

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actually, my life culminates with the creation of this thread...so i guess this is it. now what?

What if your hands were spoons? So what? Stop feeling sorry for yourself.

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you could die cold and alone like me...

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