drahnier
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(Originally posted on: 05-25-02 06:26:05 PM)
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i really dont know what i want to do...i dislike everything...
i hate to work, i hate to go to school...
i figured that life is about experiences, so i should travel around the world and see new things instead of living in one place for my whole life...
but now i've realized that if you dont like to travel around to different places, then its a waste of your life to do so...you should do something that you like...
and i dont like to travel...so maybe i shouldnt do it
the problem is that i dont like anything...i really dont feel like going to new places and see new things, and i cant imagine getting a job that i dont dislike either...
life just seems completely pointless, and whatever i do i'll be stuck living on some shitty appartment and working with something that i dont like...
its a complete fucking waste, its full of pain and boredom...
the only reason that i'm not dead yet is that i'm terrified of death, cause i'm sure that theres no such thing as a life after death...and i really want to exist...
the fear of death is really ruining my life, but the only way to get rid of the fear of death is to die...
is that irony or something? cause i've forgotten what "irony" means tonight...
it seems that theres no way to get anything other than a boring, pathetic life...
i'll have to work for my whole life cause if i dont i wont have enough money to survive, and its so fucking pointless...i'd have killed myself long ago if it wasnt cause i'm afraid of death (like i mentioned above)
anyway, my question is, what do you plan to do with your life?
do you have something that you feel gives your life a meaning, and what is it?
and BTW, i know that this makes little sense, so feel free to flame me...but please dont say that i just have the "teenage angst syndrome"...
cause i've heard that a million times and i'm fucking tired of it...and yet no one has explained exactly what it is...
please say something more productive than that
vem bryr sig om hur nätterna far?
jag bryr mig inte ett spår
bara jag får ha mitt ansikte kvar, dolt i min älsklings hår
jag är en tvivelaktig figur, duger ej mycket till
bakom ett hörn står döden på lur, han tar mig när han vill
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