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Reply 8 of 72 (Originally posted on: 01-18-03 02:12:55 PM)
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Quoted from ExtraKryspi: You're not going to die. During the Gulf War, something like 150 people died.
What does that have to do with anything?
And BrandNewCar I've been exactly where you're at. I did pretty much the same thing, swallowing any of the pills that we had in the cabinet, which doesn't sound bad, because there was some advil and some ibuprofen and tylenol, but there was also a bunch of my sleeping pills and migraine medication and various other prescriptions. Pretty much the same thing happened, I passed out, and woke up about to puke and I puked and puked and puked all night and dry heaved a bit when there was just nothing left in there. I hated myself. I'm not even really "okay" with myself now, I just don't think about it. I guess I've decided that (literally and figuratively) I don't have the stomach to end my own life. There are things to live for, but it seems like that only applies to everyone but me for the most part. I find things pretty, but what's the point of living twenty four hours a day when only one hour of the day is halfway pleasant? Anyway, I'm not even sure what the use of this post is if not to say that things can get better, or they can get worse. Killing yourself just makes you into a statistic. The best I can advise is to stop living for other people. If you hate school, then you're really just wasting a lot of money because it won't get you anywhere, and if it does, it'll be a place that you don't want to be anyway. So quit school if you really don't like it that much. Or maybe it's just living with your parents that is causing all of this friction. Maybe see if there is somewhere you can move or something you can work out. Try to avoid confrontation while you weigh all of your choices.
It's been a long december.
You get the feeling it's all a lot of oysters
with no pearls
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