Socrateius
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(Originally posted on: 10-04-02 05:20:49 PM)
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Well, many, many thing have happened in my life in the past couple months. Everything went to crap on June 21st, where my best friend was killed in a car accident. I was devastated, crying myself to sleep every night for the next month. The only thing that got me through it was another close friend, who was also my best friend's girlfriend. We became best friends, she was the only person that understood what I was going through, and I was the only one that understood what she was going through. After the grief part of getting over my friend subsided, we had so much fun together. We would go out and have fun all the time, and would talk for hours on end.
School starts, and we're still best friends. However, this past week, she got to know the ex-boyfriend of her dead boyfriend's crush. Basically, he finally got her out of the emotional rut that she was in, according to her. Basically, everything I did was worthless, or something. Anyway, she tells me yesterday that she thinks that she is starting to become attracted to him. It was a total shock to me, for obvious reasons. However, instead of feeling happy that she's not "depressed" anymore, I feel like shit. It hurts every time I see her and him together. I think I'm falling in love with her(or some degree of it). God fucking damnit, why does this have to happen? I can't do this, I really can't. I feel like shit right now, and as soon as her and him get together, we will grow apart. It is going to happen, neither of us can help it. And here I am, right now, feeling like crap, seeing if I'm just as fucked up as everyone else.
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